Hate.

I'm in a state of mind where the last year of my life feels like a total waste. I don't know how to get my bounce back or my motivation, and above all, I'm losing faith in everything I thought I knew. I don't even know where to begin to start counteracting this. I felt like this before 5 years ago and pulled myself out, but the underlying problem wasn't me then... and now it is. I really honestly think I hate life and humanity.

There's a song I came across describing a girl who can't stand to watch things hurt and cries over wanting to change it. That IS me. But instead of having a drive to change it, I just sit and cry. It's pathetic, I feel useless, and the fact I know all this and still do nothing makes me feel even better. I just have to admit it first, give it time, and then hope that this post will disgust me in the future and make me never want to return to this. Here's to hoping I'll get to that point.

Life Lessons #1

Life isn't over after a breakup.... it's best to learn from them and to move on with a lesson well learned, instead of sulking and letting that baggage from another hurt the next relationship. You never know when Mr/s. Right will come along, and it would be such a shame to ruin it because the last person didn't know how to treat you right.

I'm writing this in hopes it might help whomever is reading this... but also as a reminder for myself since I tend to not listen to my own wisdom when times get hard.

"It must be time to move on now, without the fear of how it might end........"

It's better to end things and move on then to hold onto something that will never work. This should apply to everything, but stubborn people like me always learn the hard way.

I can love and enjoy life being alone... I've done it before, it's just time to get on the bicycle again.

Another love collage:

My nephew

Howl at the Moon

My perfect roommate

Him :)